Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: cleansing, garage sale, materialism, stuff
My headache is gone!
I had a headache for 2 whole weeks – cant be good for thinking straight – cant be good for anything actaully. Went to doc on Friday – he gave me an injection in my head!!!!!! It hurt like a son-of-a-bitch! Plus he gave me a script for some heavy duty drug to take that night and promised the headache would be gone in the morning. I actually dont remember much about that night. I know I wasnt sleeping the whole time but I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I worked for a few hours on Saturday but I only remember it in a hazey kind of way – slept Sat arvo and woke up alert and healthy at about 4pm Sat. So for about 24 hours these drugs wiped me out but also wiped out my headache so I guess I have to be thankful.
I wont be taking them again unless Im desperate – which I was.
We had a garage sale today. It is very revealing putting your life on display in the form of items that you one wanted so much you bought with good money. (or was given and you hated it). I guess it is good from the perspective that you are getting rid of these items because they dont fit into your life or who you are anymore. Once I got going it was ok because you realise that you cant worry too much about what people think because the person you are shedding is the person that these people buying want to become. But it is so weird that people buy the shit that you almost dont put in the sale because “no one will buy that” and other stuff that you think will go really fast and there will be a bidding war on sit there waiting and waiting…And that normal people (using the term loosely) walk up asking so what are you selling today? Well mate it is all the stuff you see laid out here. And another guy – Are you having a garage sale? No – you idiot – I like sitting out on a Sunday morning with all my stuff on display just for you to look at it ask some dumbass question and then piss off.
Some people are idiots.
But we made $400 ! yay 
So it was worth the effort.
But have now come back inside and feel like Im surrounded by more “stuff” that I need to get rid of. Why do we need “stuff”? As I was rummaging through clearing out – there were things, things like a scrapbook of cards my mum made from when I turned 1. It didn’t make the rubbish or the garage sale. Other stuff like the cymbal clanging monkey my uncle gave me – didn’t make the garage sale. Why do we need this stuff? Sentimental stuff. Are we afraid that we wont remeber these times in our lives anymore – do we want to so much that we keep momentos in a box to get out once in a while and say – I remember when …. just to pack it all away again? Does it remind us of happier times.
Not always – Ive got stuff from very painful times packed away. I am seriously considering getting rid of all my “stuff”.
Oh well 1 garage sale is a start and I do feel quite cleansed from it. If you haven’t done it before – I recommend it – even if just for the entertainment value….
I have had a headache now for 2 weeks. There was one afternoon where it went away for about 5 hours but other than that – it has been there.
I tried to get into my doctor but he was going on holiday for a while and now my appointment is today. Thank god! Today I woke up with the worst headache of the whole fortnight. I am actually in pain from the glare of the screen – - – - – I cant take it anymore!!! I hope the doc can find out what the hell is going on….
I have tried food changes, sleeping pattern changes, walking, water everything – it wont budge. I have suffered headaches pretty much since 12/13 – but never for this long.
Oh the pain………
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: blogs, commitment, conversations, honesty, lonely, responses, waiting
Having a blog requires commitment….which I dont think I have….
Most of the time I dont think I have anything to write. Then I read others blogs and the response bursts forth and I can’t type fast enough. You know, the type of typing where your brain is going faster than your fingers can type and you think you have typed all the words but in fact you have left some incidental words out and you haven’t made sense.
I have discovered that I use the blogs as a way of conversing. Even conversing with people you don’t know and in some respects this is nicer. Nicer that you have the ability to “befriend” a person via words only. That you can make a connection in a way that makes the person want to respond and want to actually expect a response back from you and want your opinion. The world is amazing that way – that you can touch someone, wonder about someone, want to hear someones voice and yet at the same time – not.
However, publishing something random that isn’t in response to something else is difficult for me – its like a one way conversation and then I wait………………………………………….with baited breath to see if anyone will actually want to comment – to reach out and let me know that I have been read…………………………………………………waiting…………………………….waiting…………………………………waiting
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: dots, double lives, friutsalad, new, strangers, xald
Well here is it – by popular demand…..well two requests anyway…..my own blog….I suppose it was time to stop harrassing the lives of strangers and let everyone have an outlet to harrass me instead.
How this all started……(I love dots randomly ending sentences – if you haven’t noticed….)
I was doing some research for studies and happened acorss a blog by “Xald”….I related and I laughed, I clicked around on this new life called WordPress and found the “literary genius of theamazingfruitsalad” and have been hooked ever since. The lives, tribulations and literature of strangers has a voyeuristic appeal and now everyone can voyeur into my world too. Albeit a boring insignificant world…..
At least it gives me a place to add lots of intriguing dots……….
I have decided that life is boring, especially when studying and that it would be interesting to try and lead a “double life”. My mission for today – start my double life.
